We watched a lot of Christmas videos, since that is mainly when I pull that darn camera out! We watched the day Chelsea was born, and some other videos when she was little. And I have to say, she was such a smart, smart toddler!! Her vocabulary at 3 was just amazing! She was 3yrs 2mos old in the video, and Kwintyn is almost the same age as she was in the video, and I hate comparing my kids to each other, but boy she could talk! Kwintyn has a good vocabulary, I think, but Chelsea's at this age she was full of words! I was laughing so hard at her cute comments she would say, and it did bring me to tears seeing her talk in front of a room full of people. I miss that little girl SO, SO much, and it breaks my heart to see how this Selective Mutism just crippled her so much. I will always cherish those precious toddler moments with her. Kwintyn's voice almost sounds like Chelsea's did at this age too. Especially on some words!
Kwintyn was fascinated watching Baby Kwintyn in the hospital crying, his words. :) He had to point out that Mom was in the hospital, and Daddy, Keagan, Grandma, Sissy, Kyle, and Kameron was there. ( He didn't see Sam hiding behind the video camera ;) And that the kids had presents. I explained to him the presents were gifts from him, to his brothers & sister, and that they also got him gifts too. He watched intently when he got his first bath. I think he liked hearing Baby Kwintyn cry. I was sad because I realized I didn't have that many entries of Kwin on video. It went from just a few minutes the day he was born, to his first bath, to 5 wks old, then jumps to 5 months old. I haven't finished from there, so not sure how old he will be in the next clip. 3 years has passed, and he has grown so much too!
Seeing Keagan, Kyle, & Kameron so little again, and hearing their sweet little voices brought instant tears to me. I am just.........speechless....at how fast they have grown up! I wanted so badly to reach through that screen, and just grab em & hug them so tight. Back then I could. Now, two are taller, and outweigh me, and the other is not too far behind. I can no longer pick them up, and just snuggle them, those days are gone. They now can pick me up, but I don't think they would want to snuggle me. Haha That Keagan!! Boy was he just.......crazy! I laughed so hard at his antics, and some of the things he would do, or say. He was a gross kid too! haha! But he also had a sweet side, too. Then there's sweet little Kyle. Just a sweet, soft spoken little boy, and that smile on his face. He was a deviant one too. Oh, and then my little Kameron, the biggest little Batman fan ever! I forgot the way he would say Batman, and to hear that again melted my heart. "Bat-Ay" or something like that. I loved hearing his little speech impediments, even Keagan had some. Kwintyn looks quite a bit like Kam did too. So I can already kinda assume what Kwin will look like, handsome little guy, with awesome hair like his big brother, Kam!
I also got a glimpse of what it was like to have 3 small boys, and a baby girl. I thought my house was loud now, it was LOUDER then, and the house wasn't as messy as I thought it was. I always thing my house is never clean enough, and it's the #1 thing I complain about. But when in all actuality, it's not to bad. Sure there is always baskets of laundry in my living room, and toys may be scattered around the room, and the furniture & walls might not look so nice, but it's not as bad as I thought it was in my mind. Another eye opener there for me. Things don't always have to be perfect. That's gonna be a hard one to work on for me, I will admit that. :/ The boys were full of energy, and so was the house. It was chaotic, and still is at times but I now know that I will never change that. I loved every single one of those chaotic, crazy moments we have had. We also got see our beloved pets, and some people who are no longer here with us. Kwintyn liked seeing the animals very much, and has a better understanding of who Belle was, our old dog who passed when he was 10mos old.
Watching those videos was so very good for my soul, and I think the kids enjoyed it too. Although Kyle & Kameron walked off after a while, and Keagan wasn't here, but I plan to watch some more with him later. I realized that videos are much more precious than pictures. You can see, feel, hear, and re-live that moment again, and see things in a different perspective. I may have done some parenting wrongs over the years, and we may not have the nicest stuff. But looking at the bigger picture, I saw kids who were happy, and who had everything they ever needed, and who were loved very much.
We may not have it all together, but together we have it all. ♥
Remember When.............♥
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